A Letter To My Unborn Baby

Dear Sprout

I can’t believe the day when we finally get to meet you is so close. At times this pregnancy has felt like it would never end, and at others I wonder where the time has gone. (To be fair, that’s happened once, and was a very fleeting moment. 38 weeks in gestation time is around 4 years in non-gestation time)

Just the other night as I arrived at the hospital for an impromptu checkup, I had a moment of panic when I walked in the doors. 50% of me was kind of hoping the doctor would tell me you were on your way, and the other million % of me was terrified out of my mind. Terrified. A thousand “ohmywordwhatarewedoing” moments flashed through my brain. I’m sure that’s normal though – and I know that the second you are here with me, those fears will all fade (to be replaced with “he’s crying – now what!?”)

I’ve had 38 long weeks to think about you, and imagine this wormy, wriggling yoga thing as an actual human being. There are so many things I’m dying to find out – do you have hair? (the gorgeous heartburn you’ve given me implies yes), will you be as heavy as your read on the ultrasound machine, what colour are your eyes? Will you match the name we’ve chosen for you? Just what kind of a small person will you be?

I have so many dreams and wishes for you, kid. Huge pressure considering you have yet to take your first breath.

I hope that from the moment you come out into this terrifying world you know, above anything, that you are so loved. You were planned and wanted and waited for. Nothing about you being here was accidental.

I hope you go forth into this new life with sincerity, compassion and empathy. I hope that you choose to see the good in everyone, yet aren’t naive when it comes to giving 3rd chances. The majority of this world is good, and I hope you get to experience that good without being taken advantage of.

I hope you inherit your dads Excel logic, sporting skills, directional abilities and eyelashes. I hope you get my wit and sense of humour. You come from a strong line of Kearney’s who are always talking, always thirsty for knowledge and always learning – I pray that you go about life devouring new experiences with voracity.

Travel. I sit here now, and regret always being the one to abide by the rules, never exceeding my leave allocation and always saving instead of jumping on that plane to an exotic destination. Go to places only limited by your imagination – and for gods sake – eat the damn durian! I hope the more you travel the more you realise that Africa is your home, but I can’t be so naive as to think that you will live here forever. It’s hard in this country at the moment, and it may just get harder. Don’t ever stick around for us, but if you do leave, make sure you have enough money to fly us over to wherever you find yourself, so we can visit and cramp your style like all good parents do.

I hope you learn from us, but don’t feel obliged to follow in our footsteps. Go forth and make your own destiny – don’t let anyone’s previous actions hold you back from your future. Don’t let them tell you that you cant – figure that out for yourself.

Read a ton of books, eat more than what you’re familiar with. Vegetables are delicious, truly. Smile at strangers and let people in traffic. Be bigger than you are. Give yourself to others, but don’t be a pushover. Learn to say no when it’s needed.

Try and do new and scary things as often as you can, but don’t be foolish. Follow the rules, live honestly and with integrity. Be a good person and treat everyone well.

Be generous. I’m not talking about buying flashy things, I’m talking about generosity with your time, your willingness to help those in need and to sometimes not look at the price tag. Don’t be frugal. No one likes that person who double dips the tea bag.

The most important thing my parents taught me was how to respect others, ask questions and remember my pleases and my thank-you’s. I hope I instill this in you too.

At the end of the day, my wish for you is to embrace this life you’ve been given, and know that you being here is for a reason. I hope you find that reason and use it to its fullest advantage.

This life is yours for the taking.

I cannot wait to meet you.

Mom

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9 Comments

  1. This is by far one of the most beautiful letters I’ve ever read. I am all emotional (fluff in the eyeball) reading this! Kate… this is amazing! I wish you all the best with the birth and bringing this beautiful baby boy into the world! xxx

  2. What a beautiful message to your little boy. Wishing u and your hubby the most amazing time, can’t wait to see pics of him.

    I know u r gonna be incredible parents and remember there r hard times and times people will give u advice, just do what makes the three of u happy.

    Lots of love.

  3. Kate. This is an amazing letter to your baby. I cannot tell you how much this is going to mean in his life and as a mom you couldn’t have said it better. This is fundamentally what we all want for our children and the way in which you capture this essence is truly amazing. I’ll never forget the pregnancy of my two boys. With each I was petrified and unsure and afraid and then they arrived into this world. All my fears and doubts were immediately replaced with sheer love and admiration. An unconditional love that never diminishes and in truth only ever gets stronger. An admiration that these little boys are me. And my wife. And they are the greatest blessing I could have ever hoped and asked for. I can’t wait to meet the other part of you. And that little baby will be everything you hope for because of you.

  4. Kate. This is an amazing letter to your baby. I cannot tell you how much this is going to mean in his life and as a mom you couldn’t have said it better. This is fundamentally what we all want for our children and the way in which you capture this essence is truly amazing. I’ll never forget the pregnancy of my two boys. With each I was petrified and unsure and afraid and then they arrived into this world. All my fears and doubts were immediately replaced with sheer love and admiration. An unconditional love that never diminishes and in truth only ever gets stronger. An admiration that these little boys are me. And my wife. And they are the greatest blessing I could have ever hoped and asked for. I can’t wait to meet the other part of you. And that little baby will be everything you hope for because of you.

  5. Kate, your blogs are incredible. The line where you say – you were planned, wanted and waiting for, is just wonderful! You are going to be an amazing mom! Thank you for inspiring us as well! Xx

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